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Last night Lena Dunham, a mere 26 years old, won Golden
Globes for best actress and best television comedy for her creation, GIRLS. She
has received a lot of criticism and praise for what she’s done. The criticism
comes mostly from people who probably want to be where she is and are not. Like those film friends we all have who sit around and critique everything wrong with a movie, but
don’t go out and make movies themselves—even though they are always proclaiming
their desire to do so---(ooh, laying the slap down on a Monday morning!)
I sat in my fuzzy socks and stretchy pants sipping tea last
night and watched Hugh Jackman, Anne Hathaway, Christopher Waltz (bravo!), and
Claire Danes (again!) win these little statues of validation. I admit. I was
envious. I just sat there.
Sat and thought about my writing career which doesn’t really exist. Sat and
thought about my photography business (which is still so tiny). Sat and thought about my role in helping
women in this world. Sat and thought about all the big dreams I have and how so
many of them are in the process of coming true—but how there is always a sense
of dissatisfaction in areas where people would be shocked to know you are
dissatisfied.
While many people try to avoid feeling the dissatisfaction—or
drown them out temporarily in chocolate and alcohol (and yes, I’ve definitely done
both), I’ve grown to savor those tiny dagger-like feelings that creep into my
psyche ever morning and every night. I’ve learned to temper them, feel them,
thrive from them, and make changes based on them. Dissatisfaction, in a sense,
has driven my life since I was 7.
Some people might think it sounds awful. Some people might raise eyebrows at me and
inwardly feel bad that I embrace such feelings. But the artists out there,
those artists, they raise a glass in camaraderie with me.
Do you know what's already happened this year? A million
Beethovens were born. A million Oprahs. A million Einsteins. A million Florence
Nightingales. A million Martin Luther Kings. And a million Madame Curies, to
name just a few. Each as capable of moving mountains, touching lives, and
leaving the world far better than they found it.
But which ones will have the courage to
do whatever little they can each day, with what little they've got, from where
they are, before their baby steps turn into giant leaps for the legions who
will follow them?
I truly believe it’s the ones who feel a little dissatisfied every day--and that dissatisfaction drives them to ultimate creation.