If you are lucky enough to have lived in Paris as a young (wo)man, then wherever you go for the rest of your life, it stays with you, For Paris is a moveable feast." Ernest Hemingway
I've been working on relationships lately, namely: the one with myself. I planned this little summer getaway to Paris at a time when I really needed something to look forward to and plan about, and now the reality of it is almost upon me. I've got my house rented, I've got my summer dresses and my sandals bought, I'm finishing up the last weeks of the school year and I am so entirely happy. I can't wait to see what and who Paris will bring into my life. Each day is a powerful gift. Each moment, each thing I bring into my life is entirely of my (and your) own choosing. There is something so entirely free and delightsome in that fact.
So many people on so many paths to life. Last Sunday I went to the United Church of Christ with Alisa. It was a church with an awesome band (singing songs about the Long haired socialist Jew), a woman pastor, and a message that finally resonated with me. It's been a long time since I've attended a church where I didn't disagree with anything that was being said. The Pastor got up and gave us a message. Most Christians idealize the idea of being a sheep. Jesus is the shepherd. In the book of Matthew it talks about how Jesus needs to separate the sheep from the goats. The pastor got up and admitted that she herself is a goat. She was always going on unknown paths, not conforming to the crowd, not doing the things that maybe she was supposed to. The goats always seemed to have more spunk and spirit. They'd climb to the high cliffs and they'd forge their own paths. She also reminded all Christians that there truth isn't the only truth and that all of us on earth have different paths, but we're just trying to reach the same ends. One big beautiful tapestry of interwoven faith and beliefs.
I think my whole life I've been trying to be a sheep and I've been trying to let Jesus be my Shepherd.
The reality is, I'm a goat. Plain and simple.