Wednesday, March 25, 2009

A Free Bird

Life is good. Life is beautiful. Life is busy. Life is happy. Life is right where I want it to be given a few exceptions. I think because I'm not having religious anxiety, I've gotten rid of most of my relationship drama in my life (that intense dating time was TOO intense), and I've decided to focus on me again, funny how happy I can become.

I have been focused on others a lot this past year. I focused on what people would think about me given my religious woes, and I spent the better part of last year trying to get two people to fall in love with me when it just wasn't working. Now that I've taken a step back from it all, and I'm just D'Arcy again (happy and mostly sane...except for those late night phone calls to Michelle to help keep me grounded) I feel good. I feel damn good.

Work is a major success. Homelife is peaceful and idyllic. My heart and home and love and money are all just working.

I haven't posted much. I've been getting healthy. Farewell dear Rice Pudding...hello cucumbers. I've been hitting the gym about two hours a day, making healthy meals, putting more effort into waking up early and actually putting some make-up on this mug. And by the time I know it, it's 10 o'clock at night and ready to go to bed. I've been trying to read blogs and keep up, but it just hasn't been calling me like it used to. My attention is somewhere else.

Here are some various snippets:

1. My kids took first in the state for English Quest competition

2. A young boy dropped a note on my desk telling me he was praying for me ( I think my feminist/agnostic soul just hangs in the air)

3. I got to hold Holly's adorable baby for almost an hour on Saturday and he just cooed and smiled a winning grin.

4. My students have been composing their own poetry and presenting it. One of my student, a girl who got pregnant four months ago and just found out the sex of her baby read a poem today that she composed for that baby. It was one of the most emotional and heartfelt moments of my teaching career. She will be giving that baby up for adoption in just five months.

5. Another student picked up a gummy bear from the ground to eat. I advised against this. He did not listen to my plea, only to chew on said gummy bears and come to find out it had been in another students mouth just seconds before. Um, yeah, I DON'T teach elementary school.

6. I've been sticking to being a vegetarian. It's a sweet, sweet fresh life!

7. I just rediscovered an old poem by Maya Angelou:

A free bird leaps on the back

Of the wind and floats downstream

Till the current ends and dips his wing

In the orange suns rays

And dares to claim the sky.

While so many are struggling to claim their piece of sky....mine is blue and clear for now. And I'm gonna enjoy that while it between the storms. Oh yeah, and I just reserved my hotel for Venice. That's some blue, blue sky!
P.S. Jenn, I don't know if this is entertaining to you....but here's something I found funny if you want to take a gander!!


smiles4u said...

I had this feeling that you have been busy with all these things. I am proud of you my friend. This new season of your life is agreeing with you and I couldn't be happier for you. Sounds like you are having lots of great moments in and out of school. Isn't it something how when we are loving ourselves we start doing those things for our bodies that are healthy and good? And we feel even better for it?

Your attention is where it needs to be right now. Just know I think of you and am happy for the freedom you have found. Love and hugs, Lori

Ruahines said...

Kia ora D'Arcy,
It is always a fine discovery to find your presence here. Do not ever let that deter you from your own Path. You only need to honour yourself. When you write and share with all of us here you honour us all. Kia kaha!

Kristan said...

Oh, Venice! How I long to go...

Sounds like you're very happy, and that adds to my happiness. :)

Pseudonymous High School Teacher said...

Congrats on the 1st place of your students. That's wonderful.

Glad to hear you are happy and doing well D'Arcy.

Olivia said...

I smile at you! :)

HappyWifeHappyLife said...

I LOVE this! Life is loving you, and you are loving life! I am thrilled for you!

Here's to health, happiness, and wholeness.... sounds like they are all WELL in your grasp, my dear.

Steve and Jenn Fletcher said...

Was I the "Jenn" to whom you were referring? Well, I took a gander and I thought of a joke to tell, but I'm afraid people will take it the wrong way, so I'm going to keep it to myself.

But your gummy bear story was the best ever!

Indra said...

Very Intersting

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